You're running through the leaves, bushes and tree branches, narrowly escaping the ravine in your pursuit for a way out. You keep asking yourself the same question, like a broken record it plays repetitively in your head.
"How did I get here?"
"How am I going to escape from this jungle?"
"Why am I talking to myself, and where is everyone else?"
You hear a thud and you end up jolting upwards on your bed, finally awoken from that weird, direction less vague dream as beads of sweat trickle down your nose. You look around and you realise what the dream was all about. The aforementioned jungle was just a piece of symbolism for your jungle of thoughts, your mind, and you being lost in it is exactly what it feels like, hopeless and fearful.
Here I am again, finally got around to doing my second post on this blog. Why the exaggerated intro, you may ask. Why not, I reply. After all, this post is about new beginnings. Its just that, lately there have been a lot going through my mind. On a personal as well as on an academic level, its so new and stimulating that I've still been trying to take it all in.
Lets get things started with the lesser worry of the two, my studies. I'm still in quite a culture shock at how classes are and things are done here. I'm so used to a lecture hall with 150 students listening and taking notes from a lecturer who, in all essence, looks like he hasn't had fun in 30 years. Everything here is so laid back and enjoyable that I don't even feel like I'm studying. It could be perceived as a bad thing by some parties, but not me for sure. I'm confident I won't slack off, not this time for sure. Its really refreshing not having to stay up till 2am every day finishing up Calculus tutorials and end up getting almost everything wrong when discussed in class the next day.
I guess I've finally found something I'm good at, something right up my alley. I can finally get rid of the 'jack of all trades, but master of none' tag that I've been wearing around for the past few months. I'm in my comfort zone here, nothing is going to phase me. Contrary to your thoughts, I'm not narcissistic, its just plenty of confidence of which I only ever really acquire when I know that something is right.
Thats one out of the way, now onto a more personal level. I have to admit, things have been going good, too good in fact. I just hope everything stays the same and hopefully more can be built upon this already good start I've been having. In all honesty though, thats all I can really disclose, because I don't really like spilling personal details out for the world to see.
But yes, as a new beginning, it has been better than anything I could have asked for, and then some. Sometimes things are too good they get you thinking, and when that mind of yours gets going, you come up with all sorts of possibilities. Yes, getting lost in that train of thought in a jungle is annoying when it gets you worked up, but I guess its a healthier way to kill time instead of watching Glee reruns, am I right?
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